[Thursday, April 27, 2006]
気ー持ーちー
i dunno why but recently i feel like blogging everything down..
it's as if my brain has no more space to store all my thoughts..
let me begin with something i saw in office.. some UN badges and the name badge of the old but cool policeman..
太帅了！
i stood there for quite a while to look at his stuff..
humorous guy + uniform = ultimate =) haha (maybe only xiuli can ever understand hoho)
and that day i read about people's 秘密のキス(secret kiss)
someone said he was a soccer coach of a sch and his secret kiss was with his student's mother!!
a few actually said they kissed their friends' bf/gf!!
he was on the way to toilet, she was coming out of the toilet,
and it seemed the right moment to hug and kiss..
then they pretended nothing happened..
haa
and also, i think on sunday The New Paper had a article on attached/married women having one night stands..
when i read that i was very confused..
somehow their reasoning sounds very right and at the same time very wrong to me..to a certain extent they are not entirely wrong i guess..
people can like a lot of things at the same time right... are the people in the wrong..
im confused... anyway love is not as innocent as it was already..
i guess sometimes,u just can't control your feelings..
and the last thing is dedicated to someone special..
just wana tell u ..
i hate u for taking away a part of me
i hate u for lying to me
i hate u for ruining my life
i hate u for making me cry
i hate u for wasting my time
i hate u for ever entering my life
i hate u for your existence
i hate u for destroying me
i hate u for making me hate everything that has got to do with u
i hate u for ur stupid attitude
i hate u for ur fucking stupid smiling face( it totally irks me)
i hate u for being able to just laugh it off
i hate u for making me feel like a failure
and
i hate u for making me hate u(which is a total waste of time and energy)
i hate u for making me hate myself
basically i hate u because u are u and the things that u have done
i wish u will just disappear ok?
just vanish..
u are the reason why i dun feel complete all these years..
i hate the feeling...
i just hate it.
i hate u TTD.
i am jus angry and sad all of a sudden. i think it's PMS.
-- 20:14
