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名前	フイイー
誕生日	19xx.11.16 昭和62年★☆

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[Sunday, May 01, 2005]

i feel like crying all over again......

what am i supposed to do?????
why does it have to turn out this way??
it was not supposed to be like that!!!!
is being too bonded a sin?? is being too lenient a sin??
they just dunno their limits..but i know mine..and it's coming to an end..i feel like exploding...
yah i know no one will believe i will get angry..

"Hui Ee is just a puny little girl who runs here and there,smiling everywhere...aww.."

FUCK. everyone has a limit. i respect them,as same-aged people..yday the truth hit me..in fact the truth was obvious already..just that i was running away from it.. i wasn't about to get the respect i need to get... when we are friends,it's ok.. but when it's time to get serious,you jolly well settle down and do the work..
i can't believe i am fighting that battle alone..my soldiers have become my enemies..
IT'S JUST SO NOT FUNNY.. quit all ur jokes and get down to work...we have no more time...i doubt they get it.. because everything,to them,is a joke...i am transparent to them...i feel so hurt....hurts so much =~( people i love are making me sad...why..? if it's other people i won give a damn at all.. but why must it be the people i care for? u all make me look so stupid..make me feel useless...maybe i am...maybe...

i hate school...i hate band....
i feel like shouting at them on monday... to at least show my existence since they didn't even realise it since the start..................the bad memories have overlapped the good ones.....

you are hurting me...u are not helping.. how could you..i hate u..from now on..i don wan to see u ever again......

-- 08:45