[Thursday, April 07, 2005]
ah cam was here.
i realised that the only times i got in contact with japan were the weekly 'Go Go Japan' show,the minnie mouse tshirt and ..japanese lessons..pathetic. i want japanese penpal! preferably rich one,lol..so can buy stuff for me..
how i wish i can go japan.. in fact live in japan.. it's the cherry blossom season now!! imagine the sakura.. kirei da ne..
mrs leong said something which i thot was very true.. ' no one likes friends who criticise him'.. something like that. it's so true. u r struggling, trying to find ur way in life..trying ur best..and suddenly someone who duno anything comes and say something stupid that makes u feel that all ur hard work,all ur struggling is not worthwhile and that u hadwasted ur time. it's kinda hurting..in fact very. can't help it but feel that the person is not fit to comment at something she dun understand. totally piss me off..
very stressed at school..syf!! but i think i better dun think about band stuff when not in band.. dun give myself more troubles.. i realised i haven't gone to css for quite a while. i no longer have the drive to go help them anymore. sometimes, it's really frutrating to go down in eagerness but to hear some under standard music..css can do better,i know. i've been running away all along, trying to think that if i dun go and listen to them, they would and should have improved by syf day..but is that what that will happen? seriously, i dunno what to do with css..i'm not in the band,things are harder..i can't walk around and tell a stranger,' hey u sound a bit funny here'.. as an alumni maybe i could, but i think the junior would think that i dunno about their instruments and may not take me seriously at all.
i can't imagine the day when cmb falls,from the status they held in glory for 2 yrs. there will be no celebrations,nothing. in fact,i dun think they would mention a word until after a very long time. is that what they really want? if it is, go ahead and be afraid. things cock up.. and u will live to regret lah ok. i think i shall go down soon..and help them.i can't run anymore.. i must learn to protect things that are precious to me..that's what i learn from anime.. animes are actually very inspiring..they teach us impt values..to value friendship,teammates,family..
speaking of anime,i havent watched the recent episodes of Bleach(shampoo,soap...-_-) and Naruto.. *cries* but got Shaman King on wed to fri 11.30pm.. central..thanks to Mr Su for info...hey!! i'm out of point already....
anyway,the point is,
let go of the outcome,and let go of the fear.
-- 20:35
