[Friday, November 19, 2004]
cry for a reason
actually, i cried easily.
i cry when the IT man wants me to pay 10 bucks for being a day late for returning the sch laptop.
i cry when i watch touching shows.
i cry when i feel cheated.
but today, it's different.
we went airport to send chia chen, everything was perfectly fine till the time to depart. we took a lot of pictures,haha. but when we stood in front of the departure gate, we couldn't stand it anymore. i didn't cry, i told myself i musn't. the ruhuas started crying..when it came to me facing cc, i couldn't help it..because of what she said. she told me, if i have anything that bothers me, don't keep it to myself. talk to my friends...
but who can i talk to?
for the very first time, i think that there is really someone who understands me. cc was straight to the point, nothing else. it's true tt i keep all to myself, to an extent tt sometimes i feel like i'm gonna explode sooner or later. i am not too sure why her words affected me so much; it's like i suddenly found something, something that i never knew it existed. however, i think god must be punishing me for not believing in him, only to let me really realise cc's importance in my life at this very last moment.
blehh.
take care chia chen! we shall vist each other soon!! :)
-- 23:22
